So I talked to my Mom today..and she doesn't even sound like her...she doesn't say more than two words..then she apologizes and says she just doesn't feel good.  I would never wish this upon anyone.  It really is taking a toll on me.  My little brother stayed with me last night, so he could get out of the house, he also hates seeing my Mom like this.  So him and his friend Adam came over and played some video games while Adrianna, Heather and I played beer pong in the basement ;) 

But when heather left to go to Ryan and Tony's, we decided we would go with her.  My car was blocked in by Nicks.  So I asked if I could take his beast of a truck.  Of course he said yes, the only thing he said was it was running low on gas.  *It was at half a tank..obviously hes never been in my car when its low on gas..lol*  So as we went there and played some rock band lol.  As we were pulling out of the driveway and giving Ryan a ride, the vehicle would NOT move.  It wasn't even snowy..maybe some ice but it was a nice driveway no way a 4x4 coudltn take it..so ryan gets out and hes pushing...tires are smoking.  lol  Next thing you know I'm like Ag *said just like age* get out and help him push..she gets out looks at me and goes  "Tires flat..duh"  I called my brother and this was our conversation

"OMG! Nick your tires flat I'm so sorry, i didn't run over anything!"

"I know its flat Amber...:"

"You what....YOU KNEW IT WAS FLAT AND YOU LET ME DRIVE IT?!"  I was sooooo mad.  And when i talked to my mom today, she made it sound like it was my fault and I feel bad now cuz i told her they could blame it on me if it made them feel better not to yell at mr. perfect.  That's when she was like I'm sorry amber..I'm just not feeling good.   You ever want to make your kid feel bad.  Here's how.  ::Tears::  Gets me everytime.  Gets everyone everytime.  I just cant handle seeing my Mom cry or know shes crying.  And she is strong she don't cry over anything little.  So I know..she really feels like shit.  She moved her doctors appointment back from tuesday to April 1st.  Which in a way could be good, because she wants to be all healthy when she sees them.  After having gout all last month..and now having all this.  Its putting a toll on her.  So I might go home tonight and see her... Its selfish..but i just don't want to see her like that though, ya know what I mean?  I remember walking in the hospital room and seeing her looking like that..i broke down.  Granted I'm sure she doesn't look that bad right now..but she feels like it, and i know she does and that's enough for me...